Every once in a while I somehow stumbled upon article/writings/texts that invoke certain feelings like """melancholy""", """despair""", something-something, perhaps love too? those are all too good to not be saved, so here I will collect those and more in the future. That's the plan.
^^^ worst explanation ever btw...
By writing down these I hope I can improve my english writing skill as well.
[ HOME ] [ TEXTS ] [ IMAGES ]Insert entire 'Now we begin ethics' manga here... It's seriously so good. I really like it.
From: [ Now we begin ethics | ]
"I hope you're happier with the state of your life than I am with mine. I wonder if I'm lucky that my life isn't bad. It's just boring. I don't want to die, but I don't want anything, really. Every day is the same and I almost hope it stays that way. My therapist says I shouldn't overthink about the future, and I wholeheartedly agree. The only problem is that my therapist isn't real because I would never spend money on something like that. Writing this, I'm realizing I rarely spend money on anything that isn't necessary to my survival. Somewhat ironic. "
From: [ Mai ]
"Learn. Play. Laugh. Be angry. Cry. Anything is fine. Just live life with all your might. To be able to put your heart into something, and do it until you're literally too exhausted to continue. That is the value of human life."
From: [ Higanbana no Saku Yoru ni ]
from dreams...
"I think that meetings, partings, and being with others are necessary in life. However, the protagonists of the songs you just mentioned are all selfish and don't consider the feelings of others at all. They're full of ego. Even if they act like they care about others, deep down they prioritize their own feelings over caring about others."
"That's just like me. I'm a really selfish and self-centered person. I don't think this kind of lifestyle is recommended. I wish I could be forgiven."
From: [ Kasamura Tota interview ]
"Am I in this existence so that I may learn, or that I may teach others? can makind learn love and compassion?"
"or am I to learn that this world is cold and cruel, and that all will be consumed by apathy and rot? must I learn that love is not enough, and forfeit my soul to the truths of blood and fire? or am I to turn the other cheek once more, and drink from the bitter cup?"
"If I must choose, damnation of myself or of this world, will God forgive, no matter what choice I make?"
From: [ questionable source LMAO. but this one hit just right ]
"Sadar ini beberapa tahun yang lalu kalau hiburan eksternal itu udah nggak bikin lu senang, cuma sekedar pengalihan isu biar nggak mikir penderitaan. Satu-satunya sesuatu yang bisa membuat diri senang cuma perkembangan diri dan projek abadi lu paling nggak ada kemajuan sedikit. Lihat dirilu gak sebrobok hari kemarin bisa buat bakar semangat hidup tanpa bergantung pada kesenangan eksternal."
En : "I realized a few years ago that external entertainment no longer makes you happy, it is just a distraction to avoid thinking about suffering. The only thing that can truly make you happy is personal growth and your eternal project, as long as there's at least a little progress. Seeing yourself not repeating the same mistakes from yesterday can ignite your passion for life without relying on external pleasures."
From: [ A facebook profile ]
"I see men assassinated around me every day. I walk through rooms of the dead, streets of the dead, cities of the dead; men without eyes, men without voices; men with manufactured feelings and standard reactions; men with newspaper brains, television souls and high school ideas."
From: [ Charles Bukowski ? ]
"She's worried she'll get hurt again. So worried about things ending that she won't even let them begin."
From: [ A manga screenshot I don't know the title of ]
"Dear God, please be good to me. The sea is so wide and my boat is so small."
From: [ A facebook page "good morning, I love you" and the likes]
"And to all of you who feel alone at the moment, may you grow up to be happy adults."
From: [ Takopi no Genzai | japanese here ]
"If you want the truth that's why I live every day like it's my last, time is limited here and we can't spend our whole lives afraid to do things we actually want to do or being scared to go for our goals and dreams. It's like living inside a box because at the end of the day, you only get one chance, and if you fail at least you tried but you can always keep trying to better yourself and surroundings. Your life is what you make it and everyone shouldn't think about what's ahead but more just embrace the present, sculpt your future with the decisions you make today."
"I'm 40 and I think it's game over 😂"
From: [ A facebook comment section ]
"... I wasted precious hours of my life on what is now a blur with the brain's version of caution tapes all over it."
From: [ A facebook comment ]
"Everyday I go "yeah I have work to do, to concentrate." Every week I go "I got that to write in note." Every month I complete this and that. And I have been like that for 4 years. Yet when I look back, I still got nothing in my hand. I thought of it as 7 to 8 years plan, maybe 14, or way above 30. But then "where is the money? I still don't know this and that? Is the job sufficient to the original plan?" Sometimes when I remember it, I ask for how long left to try for the try to become something great, or have I been wrong all the time. All the major, life style, habit, future..."
From: [ A facebook comment ]
"Liking someone just because they do nice things is easier than I thought. I think the world is full of 'likes' that, due to timing or circumstance, never became 'love'."
"I hope you'll at least forgive me for wishing for his happiness."
From: [ Kaguya sama manga, chapter n ]
"At the end of the day, life is just a series of events that never seem to go your way. A never ending stream of things you have to give up on. Even after reaching a happy ending, life keeps marching on. It'd be nice if we could spend every day smiling happily but life always has other plans.. and every time, we end up heart-broken, taking wrong turns, making wrong choices, forever drowning in an ocean of regrets. But despite that, we know that there'll eventually come a day when we can look back and laugh about those times. We've already come to know just how nice it can be to forget about the past for a bit, and laugh with everyone in the present. It's so strange... even though tonight has been nothing but a hopeless mess... for some reason I feel like everything will just work out. Everyone will be there to help me. They're all here for me. I don't feel even the least bit lonely right now. I'm not alone anymore. Even on the darkest nights, the moonlight pierces through."
From: [ Kaguya sama manga, chapter n ]